ISO the perfect fuck.

Really?  Is it too much to ask?  I need to be fucked....and fucked hard.  I want to orgasm so hard I cry, then pass out.  I want it rough...a little painful...and I want to beg for more.  But do I get any of this?????  NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...I either get some young boy who wants me to be his mommy...or a Dom who sounds promising, but has a little dick.  It's fucking rediculous.  These men who think they know everything about a woman know virtually nothing!  I'm really getting discouraged.

Ok...I feel better now.

fuck off

Birth.

Every child is a miracle.  Brihanna Nancy Murphy born September 21st, 2010.  4lbs 3oz.

I love being a grandma!

Last one for C

with peaceful smile, in fetal pose,
quite the angel when asleep
no vicious, mean or hateful words
that cut my heart so deep

when you're awake you're different
there's things I know you hide
or try to but I see right through
your lies I can't abide

you thro diversions up at me
I'm silent, yet I know
your indiscretions obvious
in accusations you throw
10/19/94

fin

fantasy vs the real

The love that I once felt for you
first turned to pain, then rage
Now that's gone, too. I feel nothing.
It's time to turn the page.

I gave you everything I had
My pride and dignity
I gave it all to be with you
What did you give to me?

You gave me insecurity
You gave me jealousy
low slef-esteem, dependency
I took them willingly

I was so blinded by my love
I let you take control
A big mistake, I see that now
I understand your goal

Your aim is total dominance
you severed all my ties
with friends and with my family
No one can hear my cries

Spirit broken, you'd reconstruct
My new identity
The perfect mate, the ideal wife
a doll with wind-up key

Your plan was nearly a success
Thank god I saw the light
My eyes are wide open
My spirit burning bright

Please let me go, it's all over
Release your hold on me
Your beatings, verbal and with fists
Can't stop my heart...
                it's free

Lust is only temporary

     Your touches are so fine
You know all the right places
     You drive me outta my mind
and fill in all the right spaces
     You run your hand down my thigh
My eyes open wide, my heart races.

fucking musicians

Sitting in a shroud of silence
While the boys in the rage on
My focus is the body
I want to ravage all night long
The more I am around him
The more he drives me wild
I want him more than ever
to take me, treat me like a child, beat me, spank me.  I've been a very naughty girl.

Bitter....table of one.

I've been waiting for this opportunity
          for almost all my life
To mold a man the way
     I want him to be
          intentions being that
               I will be his wife.

"That was so rude, dear!"
     "How could you do this to me?"
I'll teach him to do what's right, not wrong
          if he wants to be seen with me!
                    Do this!  Don't do that!
                    Nag Nag Nag
it's the price ya gotta pay.
          just you wait and see

Just do everything I say
                         if ya wanna be with me.

                                      Buy me a car, sweetheart